Mind is racing: Can't sleep/Going Crazy
I've been trying to get to sleep forever now.
I made myself turn the TV off and go read, even though I wasn't tired.
I read for an hour. Turned some soothing music on and all I can do is think.
Racing thoughts ...... then tell myself to shut up. I tried a meditation thing but can't concentrate long enough. I put lavender oil on to relax me.
Now I'm drinking hot tea.
I cannot be late to work tomorrow (today). I'm going to get fired. How the hell am I going to drag my butt out of bed in the morning!?
I'm lying there thinking about ........ everything. I've got to get to sleep so I don't get fired. Then, remember my favorite book as a kid, then think about my meeting tomorrow, then it's something else.
I'm feeling like I can't get everything or anything done. I can't do anything right. I need to start seeing my therapist again. I can't stand how I look. I need to stop eating like a cow. I need to workout. I need to eat right. I need to help out more around the house. I need to make a budget. I need to ........ freaking sleep.
I don't know what to do and I don't know if I'm going crazy or what. Why the hell is my mind racing like this?! :wtf2