Hey this is a very interesting post.
I am not very active in NA either but I do go some. There really is no reason not to. Even if you dont buy into it or whatever, it will only help to go.
I am Catholic and very much so at that. Thank God I was raised with religion because I would be so ****** right now without it.
I am a very controlling person so I understand where you are coming from. Frankly I dont think there is anything wrong with what you are doing. I mean you are managing really well and its not like you arent getting any help (said you saw a therapist, etc). But I have to ask..didnt you say you were on Suboxone? Maybe Im thinking of someone else, but I can tell you that things MIGHT get a little more difficult for you once you come off because youre still getting opiates and all that. I would just have a plan in place as to what you are going to do once that day comes.