Theresa: I think I understand. Overthinking leads us into trouble. Making a decision - and sticking to it, of course - is a huge relief.
Sfgirl: Same thing... I do know that things seemed more simple before my addiction. And, ironically, they were much more complicated than my current droning, "flat" life, but I just didn't make a big deal out of them. Ugh, LOL.
Thanks for your replies. (I guess) it just boils down to making a decision and committing to it for once. The rest of it is a crazy, never-ending waste of mental resources.