hey! congrats on your clean time! relax, it's normal to have that lucid fantasy debacle - i've had my fair share. I'm really proud of you for doing the right thing and coming on here for support about it - as opposed to acting on it! Try to pre-occupy yourself with positive things: movies, music, books, etc.. AND feel free to write to private message me if you just wanna chat. The chat link on here is really helpful too, and they'll be a meeting at 9pm eastern tonight!
Just random note, I feel like I've seen your posts on the vh1 show sober house, am I just insane or are you the same person?
Rachel