(((Nalla))) - it's really hard when this all comes to light....when someone first calls us a "drug addict", when lies catch up with us, when what we've been doing becomes obvious, not only to those around us, but to ourselves.
My dad is a great man, but he absolutely doesn't understand addiction. He always compares it to smoking cigarettes, which he quit years ago. I've tried and tried to make him understand, and he just doesn't get it...doesn't really want to, so I've quit trying to make him "see".
I had to focus on me, and doing what I needed to do. I had to get into recovery for ME. It was tough, being questioned and not trusted, for a while, but I eventually earned the trust back...through my actions.
As bad as it seems, it will get better if you work on your recovery. If you don't, however, it will get a lot worse, and really fast.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy