Wow Beth.
I dont care what your initial intention was. It obviously had an impact on you and got you moving in the right direction for the right reason now.
I am so happy to hear this.
OMG..You have no idea how happy I am.
I think this is the first time I have seen you do something other than white knuckle it. And I am so relieved.
I get a feeling of surrender in your post. I realy hope this will be the time for you.
You deserve it and are so worht it.
I am always here for you. ((Beth))