Its amazing how I dont have to feel
alone with this situation either. Im
glad u posted.
I could trash my mom as well for
destroying myself esteem and
handed me the gift of fear.
Im Sharon and Im an alcoholic.
By the grace of my HP and people
like u here in SR I havent found it
necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that and u I am truely grateful.
Years later and sober I still dont
have that close mother daughter
relationship....
Both my parents r much older now
and ive gone thru many changes
in recovery that they r not aware
of.
I left home at 18, mature and
independant. Had a job, marrige,
kids, relocations and back home
again.
I endured verbal and physical
abuse at the hands of my mom,
who had the Dr. Jeckel/Mr. Hyde
personality. No one knew how
much of a monster she was
except the family behind the
walls. The disfunction, the abuse
only i would sustain....
I swore when i left home that
she would never raise her hand
to me ever again nor tell me
what to do. She also told me
early on to stay away from my
dad because he was hers.
No father daughter relationship
either. Sad to say because i admired
him as a awesome dad who never
steered me wrong.
I kept my kids away from my
parents....only because i
didnt want them to be sub-
jected by her changing moods.
You dont tell ur grandkids to
not touch anything in the house
and to sit in one place.
That was at their house....
So we met at resturants for
holidays and visits.
The other set of grandparents
were very doating....their house
was ours...
Anyway...i had to forgive the
abuse and remember she was
sick in her own way. My parents
did the best they could with what
they had.....
To forgive but not to forget....I
had to take care of me and my
recovery so as suggested I followed,
I was able to move pass that crap
in my life and remain sober today.
One thing to remember.....to not
repeat the same abuse to ur own kids
like urs did to u.....break the chain now
before its to late.....
The chain i broke of abuse and thus
was blessed with awesome loving
kids but sad that i dont have a close
relationship with them as a mom should
be.....i am like my mom in some ways.
Thanks for letting me share.