Just cause im clean doesnt mean im happy
I'm Tom and I'm kinda new here.I'v been clean for almost a year.I am 44 yo and I still have parent problems.My dad is a very angry man. Last time we saw him he took a swack at my then 2yo son.It was like it was alright to beat the **** out of me but not my kid.So I have kept my distance for the last 9 years. My brother called me last night and said Dad has mrsa virus eating away at his shoulder that he had replaced 2 yrs ago.The synthedic shoulder rejected and his arm just hangs.And by the way he has lung cancer bad and is probably going to die.I just dont know what to feel. I HATE him for wrecking my childhood and I HATE him for draging me out of bed by my hair when I was 10 in the middle of the night and beating the st!t out of me .I could sit here and trash him all day long.Now how do I feel about a pathedic old man who I really dont like He has some responcibity for the emotional mess i am today.I want to rool up in a fetal position and cry