(((Susan)))
I am sorry for your pain...I understand...
my only child is a walking miracle after surviving 2 cancers as a child, and has spent the last eight years trying to destroy herself...
I had to let her go if she was ever gonna come back to herself and me...
she just started therapy a couple of months ago, even tho she is still using..
Susan, there is always hope...I felt as you do right now..and it is hard, but Al-Anon and Naranon will help you work through this pain.....:ghug3