you know, it is such a dark and terrible world to live in, this addiction world. I guess i just cannot understand this. I agree this is not my fault, but as a mom i feel like i have really failed him in some way. The guilt is excrusiating. HE acts like I owe him to continue this way of life. We are going away for the weekend. This is really killing me and i need to recoup. I am scared of what will happen to our home while we are gone, yet my husband and i need a break