Katie, it seems that you are overwhelmed right now and out of your comfort zone. I hope you stay. I hope you don't let the demon win. Stick with it. Tomorrow will be a better day. Is your friend that is coming the same friend that you drank with? Please tell me you're not thinking of leaving with him. You're going to go through many emotions, I hope things get better and I hope you stick it out a bit longer. Like trying not to drink, maybe taking it one hour at a time might help. You are going to go through alot of emotions, you are a strong person, don't forget that. This is what you've been working for, give it a chance to settle down. Give your head a little time to clear. I'll be thinking of you.