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Old 03-11-2009, 02:22 PM
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mle-sober
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I talk back to myself firmly. I laugh at my tempted and sneaky alcoholic self. I try to belittle and talk down to that voice in me that thinks I could get away with it and it wouldn't have consequences.

I don't know if that sounds strange but it's my biggest weapon - in my mind, making my sober and recovering self BIGGER and making my alcoholic self a stupid little pathetic liar. Which it is - I don't have to work very hard to see it that way.

The part of me that wants to drink is selfish, self-righteous, dishonest, and coniving and filled with self-hatred. The part of me that works to stay sober and in recovery is more spiritually ambitious, more capable of seeing the truth, more generous in nature, and more loving and gentle with the world as a whole and more forgiving. So, when I am tempted to drink, I try to talk to that better part of me and I try to expose that lesser part of me so I don't fall for it.
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