thanks tallulah. yes, i could store some of my things at my friend's house. i don't know where my brain is.
and yes, i could apply for a crisis loan. i should do that because otherwise, i will be travelling to america with nothing in my pocket, which is also stressful but i am sure i would make it.
i'm a bit overwhelmed and keep telling myself babysteps. today, i will attempt to book my flight. tomorrow, i will call the crisis loan people and tell them he drank all the money and see what they say. (i'm still just learning about the social system in this country, as i was employed until 6 months ago.)