Hello there TC, and have a (((( hug)))) I know that pain very well. I was married to a wonderful lady for 20yrs. Only the last few years did she turn to pain pills and become an addict. I also miss the woman I married, she was truly an angel.
Some day she may find her way to sobriety. I know that as long as I remained in that marriage I was _preventing_ her from finding recovery. She had a place to live, food to eat, rides to work, and on and on. Why _would_ she want to change, I was making it all too easy for her.
Today my life is worlds better. Once in a while I still remember the woman she used to be, but now I can remember the good times and _smile_. I am grateful for those wonderful years. In a manner of speaking, the woman I married _is_ gone. I cannot turn back the hands of time. Some day you will feel as I do. We all survive and overcome this most intense of all pains.
In the meantime, keep posting here. That's why we are here. To help each other make it thru this nightmare.
Mike
