You all are beautiful.
It is my time to weep - I'm sure the time will come again.
I weep, and then I scream!!!!
I had to leave the room to scream in the car when P started acting like I am insane or vindictive for insisting that he be ALCOHOL-FREE in order to care for our child (no "stopping for a few beers after work"). As if I'm imagining the past 2 years of irresponsibility and broken promises and rehab and relapse and 3 day binges and midnight phone calls from jail! What kind of crazy man thinks that after all that I'll just buy into the idea that he can drink like a normal person, no questions asked, no trial period needed, no child-care clause required!!!
ARGH.
I am not crazy. I am not vindictive. I am not backing down. He can fight me in court if he wants to - I will win.