Originally Posted by
sampar 
I have realised that my problems now i bring them on my self by still trying to hang on to the old me the liar, the cheat, priding my self on having no conscience etc. Slowly sometimes and other times it hits you like a blt out of the blue things fall into place when you are willing to let go and open your heart to change.
So many of us have a hard time confronting the side of ourselves that makes us what we've become. Others choose not to face it because it's too hard to deal with. And even more don't deal with it because they simply can't see it. It seems to me that you have found something about yourself that you can deal with each day in order to become a new person. Now you just have to find a new identity that you can be proud of, one that will last you for the rest of your life.
Give your kids a hug and tell them you love them every day. Keep coming back to SR and welcome to the family.
Peace,
Ken