Originally Posted by
falliblewoman 
was that i have not truely ACCEPTED that i am an alcoholic.
welcome!!!
This may or may not help.
Kübler-Ross model - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
A little hard to grasp, you might be thinking
how you could miss something that's caused you so much pain, but if you're like many of us-if not all-alcohol/drugs were a very important part of our lives, ending that life them was a significant change. Your sponsor was absolutely right, this thing only works if you can get to the acceptance part.
Keep coming back, you'll find a
lot of support here.