Hey, Gail;
Any updates since last post? I remember when you first started posting, about 2 years ago, you were about to leave your husband. I thought then that it was the right thing for you, but you didn't go through with it at the time. You decided that you'd spend the winter where you were and make a decision in the spring. Now you're updating to let us know you left, but you didn't provide us with much detail.
What's going on now? Where are you living? Are you safer and better off now than you were before? I hope so, because it didn't sound like your husband was being very helpful for you.
It sounds like you finally made the decision to leave, and in the long run I think this was probably a good decision. But starting a new life on your own will be a whole process and it won't come easy after having been in a relationship for so long. You have to give yourself time to adjust to being on your own. I hope you'll come back soon and let us know how you're doing.