Sex is a 2 way street. It's about both parties wanting to be there. I did it without wanting to way too many times. It made me feel used. I won't ever do it again. If I'm not in the mood and my husband is, maybe he should try to do something to get me in the mood, and if not, it ain't happening. If he doesn't take me for what I am, that's his choice not mine.
Sorry, this part hits too close to home.
...and I knew you were a girl. Just sayin'
I hope things get better for you.