Thank You!!
Thank you all for your kind words. I can't tell you how it's made me feel reading the same story from so many others. I was feeling so alone in this. It has only occured to me now that I am as addicted to him as he is to alcohol .
Certainly none of my friends understand why I am with him. I don't even really. Though at this moment he is nearly 600 miles away, he has grip on me- through texting and calls and email. And of course I answer them.
In fact just got a email that says he wants to marry me and live happily ever after. What the heck??
Yes, I can see that I do need help. And I am definately going to find it. I am feeling pretty stupid now. I keep wondering how I got into this and how I let it go on for so long. In other areas of my life I have been successful, I am an A student, have had my own business for 9 years, own my home, but when it comes to men, I make the dumbest choices.
My dad was an alcoholic, and I have been married to one who got sober when I divorced him.
So again, thanks and I will visit here often. And today I will find some help.