Hi tallulah,
Its OK.
Its natural to be scared. I am glad you are releasing your feelings. Do not keep anything inside tallulah. Its a tough time, but breathe, this too shall pass. You are a new tallulah in the making
How is your relation going on with your HP? I have been asking for what I need. I asked and keep asking him to take harmful people away from me, and "magically" they have been erasing themselves from my life. I asked for clarity and I got clarity.
I am asking for a safe silent place where I can relax and meditate, do yoga and recover faster. Maybe you can ask for what you want as well? Ask for peace, strength, a good job, a nice place to live, anything you need. It will be given in abundance.
Do not feel alone, because you aren't. We care very much, I'm sure you have good friends and family that wants to see you happy, radiant, rebuilding a new life and your own self. You won't just be OK, you will do GREAT
!! You just have to go through the thick of the forest for now...