I'm procrastinating.
I should be packing my stuff.. carrying on with getting things in place to leave.. sorting out job, place to stay etc. So I'm not.
I started and have just hit a block. I'm standing still. I am at a loss as to why tbh. It's like my head knows what I have to do but the rest of me is just not doing it. I'm trying to be gentle with myself and not feel guilty that I am finding this hard, or pathetic that I'm just not forging ahead.
Is my guilt at not getting things done masking another emotion? Yeah it probably is. I'm probably masking sadness and resignation.
Arrgghhh this is hard.
