John you and I have had serveral talks reguarding your ex, honey I know your still dealing and she in her own way is too......DONT YOU EVER THINK OF WHAT YOU DID WAS RUNNING THOUGH!!!!!! It is still way too new for you and it will take time, remember that song "turn around, every now and then I get a little excited ", it is ok you and her shared something powerful and it doesnt just go away over night.......you did great and one day you WILL be able to walk in and maybe even say hello again, hopefully she won't drive you nuts stalking you the next time you see her............good luck honey and stay strong you have done awsome so far!!!!!!!!!!!!! Remember you did this because you had too for you and always put and keep you first!!!!!!
Love and Hugs,
Pamm