Was it gutless?
The no contact thing. I feel that she won't try to accidentally bump into me, our geographical proximity and the fact that she lives on the island and I off would make it fairly unlikely in a typical day.
I got my haircut today, left my travel mug there, so I turned around went back and got it after I was about 5 minutes away from the place. Stop at the gas station to get cigarettes, it's an island design with pumps and entrances on both sides .
There's a van parked on one side, nothing really registers, didn't get a real good look at it.
Park on the opposite side, get out of the car and take 3 steps towards the door and there she is at the register, without thinking I spun around and got back in my car and sat down, waiting until I saw her pull out and onto the street and drive off.
Sitting in the car waiting for her to leave, felt like a little kid hiding from god-knows-what. And only feeling a little better that my instinctual response was to turn and walk the other way.