welcome to S.R. i hate to be the one to tell you but it is going to get MUCH worse. my son is a crack addict. it is one of the hardest drugs to get off of. it is a roller coaster. stop it now. look after you & run as fast as u can. the respect dies & so does the love. he can not hitt his bottom if u do not let him fall. his problem is not about you,it is all about him. he will not have time for you. read around. learn your recovery. this is a wonderful site & we have all been there with someone we love.saying prayers for u & your b.f. i am sorry this is so blunt but if it was a b.f. or a husband i would detach & never see them again.it is a terrible life to live.