Introduction-Why can't I just be
Hello. I'm new to this forum and to sobriety with a purpose.
I come from a family of alcoholics, some real bad, some functioning.
Started dabbling with alcohol when I was 10.
I've always drank to excess, many times I've been the girl crying hysterically at the end of the night for no reason...or slapping someone.
Stopped drinking during pregnancy and for a good year after that, about 8 years ago. Didn't have a hard time giving it up at that point.
I started drinking heavily a couple years ago when husband quit his job. This started a vicious self medicating cycle, massive amounts of caffeine and carbs during day, then a bottle of Merlot at night.
Last year I started having intense panic attacks. So bad that I thought I was stroking out.
Long story short, I've been trying to quit drinking and self medicating, I'll do good for a couple weeks and then I'll find my wine glass in my hand again.
I want to end this cycle, but I think I need support.
My husband likes to drink socially and doesn't have interest in stopping and my parents get disappointed if I don't drink when I visit them.
Well, that's enough for now. Just wanted to say HI.