I guess I can relate to wanting 'my disease' to be a separate entity, apart FROM myself, and not a part OF myself. To be so aware that part of myself is so destructive and selfish and stupid just gives me more fuel for the 'self loathing' fire I'm burning in. But the 'cunning, baffling, and powerful' part also makes me feel dumber than the object alcohol, as it has power over me I don't have over myself.
did that make any sense?
Last edited by least; 03-01-2009 at 12:18 PM.