When I chose to separate I was a sobbing mess of hope and disappointment and fear. I moved out because I HAD to for my sanity, not because I wanted to. I wanted to be with P. I wanted him to love me and behave.
No more. I want to be free.
Everyday I get to take steps that are in my best interest, and it feels wonderful.
Can I just say that I could have wrote that first quote...word for word?(except substitute the P with a D lol) I will give kudos to you, me and anyone else that has HAD to walk away from someone they love without really "wanting" to - it takes a STRONG soul to make that choice.
And honey - I've been free now for 9 months and it is the BOMB!! Don't get me wrong - you will have your laying in the floor in a fetal position moments at the beginning probably - but they will get less and less. You don't have to answer to anyone but YOU know and it is an amazing feeling.
All my best to you. Peace and strength.