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Old 02-23-2009, 01:39 AM
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shaun00
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I see your line of thought........for me it was ego related..

Even after all id been through...and when i first got sober...

And AA was mentioned.....i remember thinking.......ahhh..really.

Alright my drinking was a problem.....but AA....Thats for "them"

Thats the final option right?.........surely not........

Ha ha makes me laugh when i think about it......its difficult to see how my drinking could have been much worse...

And there was no more options.........i avoided AA for a Short time..and got drunk.

I am a chronic alcoholic....i say it....doctors said it....took a while to deflate the ego and accept it...

Apart from AA meetings....and my private thoughts...i dont mention it.

I just dont drink....the vast majority of people i come into contact on a normal working week have no idea im alcoholic.

It doesnt even get mentioned at home anymore.....i just dont drink.

I come on sr........last night i did some bb reading....tonight im off to a meeting...

And it doesnt really.....come up in my house....i just do what i do.

My alcoholism is all about ME and doesnt involve anyone else.

I do "my thing"........and it doesnt really come up in my normal every day life involving anyone else.

I think there is a stigma involved with alcoholism.........its seen as a weakness

Thats why anonymity is vital i think....for the would be AA member.

Does that stigma keep people out there drinking.........for sure..imo.

Im glad you have found your way of staying sober.....and i have deep respect for that.

I dont feel any shame or guilt for being an alcoholic.....these days.

Yes......maybe it would be great if the public perception changed towards alcoholism but i dont think that will be in my lifetime.

but i do think the public perception will change towards smoking in my lifetime.
it already has......people are starting to frown when i spark up a cig........

good wishes to you..trucker
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