Richard, first of all, a month is Awesome! Congratulations.
My husband lost his drinking buddy, too. And yes, I think he secretly hoped I would start up again...but I held firm. I held firm for 7 months..... And....guess what.....he's been sober a month now, too! How cool is that?!
And in the same breath...his sobriety has not one thing to do with me. If he decides to 'have just one' (we've been down that road before), he'll have to do it without me.
And just one more thing while I've got your ear....sometimes I think the mind sends signals to the body that aren't really there....or aren't as bad as we think they are, just so we will pick up that bottle again. There is a book, The Mind Body Connection, can't remember the author, that does a nice job of talking about how your mind can really mess with you.
Stay strong. Stay strong for you and everything else will fall into place.