life sober doesnt suck at all, infact i have had more fun in the last 10 months of my sober life than the rest of it combined before that. What can suck is adjusting to sober life. Its not easy, especially not for someone in your situation, still young, still in college, still trying to discover yourself...But it is possible. Keep grinding away hun, keep working ur steps and trying to do the next right thing and I promise you the miracles of sobriety will take hold.