"I don't think I can deal with it! " you can and you must.
The struggle we have as parents of addicts is to learn how to detach, how not to enable and how to have the life we are meant to have w/o going down with our child.
I have had to detach from my son for months at a time. However, whenever he was down and out enough to want rehab I helped him get into treatment because his mind was too muddled to figure it out on his own. However, I have paid for it three times now and if he relapses after this treatment I will not fund another one.
Keep faith, my son has been sober and in treatment a yr.
Working the 12 steps through alanon taught me a lot about myself It helped to put the focus back on my own life most of the time. It helped me improve all of my relationships.
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