Thank all of you for your very honest but compassionate post! I am so glad I found this site! It's just what I needed. A place to be able to vent my real feelings and cry if I need to. There are days when I just don't think I can bear the pain any longer. My heart is just breaking! I honestly thought I could "fix" him but I am seeing more and more that I can't! He has to fix himself! I know he wants to but does he have the strength and the will to do it? I know I have to leave him in God's hands now!