Thanks, It is so weird, bc my husband well I guess you could say soon to be ex is an alcoholic, so I know that side as well. I never understood him. I NEVER thought I would be in this position, but in the last year or two, my life has spun out of control. I do not want to do anything to put my kids in a bad situation, and living with him would be bad. Also, by parents smoke pot, and my mother has bordeline Personality disorder so there is no way I am letting them go there. This is why I am so afraid to tell a dcotor, I cant loose my kids.