Originally Posted by
MrsMagoo 
Between SR and Nar-Anon and Celebrate Recovery, my life is FULL of addicts and alcholics who have beat back this disease - all have very ugly pasts due to addicition and all are solid in their recoveries and helping people and they are smart, loving people. Because I know and love these amazing people who have the utmost respect for - I can see a future for AH just as well as I can see his past before he ran back into the arms of addiction.
Look at your above quote and what I put in bold. There's the hook.
As Anvil already stated, why are those addicts where they are in recovery?
I'll tell you why I am where I am in recovery. There was
NO ONE LEFT to pick up my pathetic carcass when I hit bottom.
You're not living in the moment and accepting what is. You're living in the
fantasy that perhaps some day, some how he will get it like others have.
Till everyone got out of my way and let me fall hard, I never got any better, only worse.