Thank-you all who are listening and sending me good wishes. This has been very difficult for me. He moved out on 11/24/08 and has been trying to talk me into coming back without respecting my wishes. Sure he went to AA meetings and tried to do unselfish acts but when it came down to it, he was doing it for me and not for him. He just wanted his wife back and the life as he knew it. But it would have never been the same. I almost took my life on Sunday, that scares me. What if next time I actually take it a step further? I saw my therapist on Monday and we came up with a plan if that happens again. I have a great support system with my family and friends.
Pray for me to stay strong. I go to the lawyer today to sign the divorce papers. There is no turning back, only looking forward from here.