I'm glad you've made the decision to quit. It's sooo hard, but worth the pain and tough choices we all have had and continue to have to make.
Quitting, and continuing to quit if we fall, is the only choice for all of us here I think.
Life cannot be what it is suppose to be if we are drowning in booze or drugs, that is a fact that I know. The rest of the process of what to do on my way to a new and true life...I am learning with the help of all my friends here at SR.