Most of us here are trying to change the habit of a lifetime, Firestorm - it takes a lot longer than 4 days to do that.
4 days is barely enough time for the detox part of the process.
It does get easier - but it takes a lot longer than half a week. Don't worry about trust issues or anything else - just focus on not drinking for now.
I dunno what your support system is, but I do know there's always someone here to talk to when you're crawling out of your skin.
We've all been there - it is possible to get past that, I promise.
Don't give up.
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