Sorry friend im bit confused.....
Are you saying your alcoholic???.......
In my experience ive never seen a problem drinker/alcoholic return to " normal"
drinking....ever...that dont mean it dont happen but ive never seen it.
Maybe your bodys trying to tell you.....not to drink at all.
but i have seen alot of...........total abstinance from alcohol.
As i said im a bit confused as to where your coming from or trying to get to.
As for controlled drinking...i have no idea how to do it......and never will.
Any how.........best wishes to you......................trucker