Two things I just wanted to comment on.
It's 2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep.
I'm not on meth, but some would wonder.....
I just have a hard time sleeping, always have.
I stress to much.
But you could sit here forever and try and figure
out if I "was really" using, but in the end what
is it really going to change.
Nothing is going to change.
Either I am using or I am not.
You can't change it.
Trust me if I want to do meth, I WILL do it.
I don't mean to say this is about me, but being a former
meth addict, I just mean try and take care of yourself
and let her do what she needs to do as hard as that is.
You can drive yourself crazy trying to figure out the game
that meth plays.
As a mother, guilt still racks me.
This IS NOT your fault, you didn't cause it, and you can't fix it.
You can just love her enough to let her stand on her own two
feet and do what she needs to do.
Lots of things have happened in my life, both good and bad,
but it's no ones fault that I did meth.
My Mom isn't Perfect, ha ha, lol.... but it sure isn't her fault
that I did meth. That is putting a lot of self importance on yourself.
You Mom's aren't expected to be perfect NOR are you expected
to raise perfect daughters. It's just part of life, you did nothing to cause
this. You are off the hook, really, ask any meth addict or any addict in recovery.
:ghug