hi jow....glad you posted......get that stuff out in the open...
Its ok to feel like a drink sometimes in early recovery jow..
It what we did for a long time........it dont go away over night....
But in my experience "the thirst" gets less and less powerful......
Have you tried some sweet fizzy pop?........worked quite well for me.
AND try to remember to "play the fantasy tape to the end".......forget the begining.
You know.....the bit with the nice bar maid........cheap booze ...everyone laughing.......
BUT the end of the tapes got the .........jail cell or waking up a strange town..
or...dry retching......or sweating...or not sleeping....or no appetite....
The end of "the tape" is the reality........the begining is fantasy.
You can do this.......lots of people have including this old drunk........trucker