When I started this thread, it was my paranoid addictive personalty taking over. My thoughts were all over the place about AA, I even thought it might be cult related. ( again many years on drugs has developed a paranoid way of thinking, now much of that suppressed but still there.)
I have gone to another meeting and talked to my sponsor, I have realized that AA is a God send and is why I can claim 16 days sober now.
I am decided on AA now, and I decided that is great vehicle to my lifetime of sobriety. Thanks all
AA personally recommended to everybody by Hardwired Flaws!!~!!