hey there...checkin in...it is beautiful today sunny...a little warm...here I sit in the house watching movies? Whats up with that...I wanna go out and do things but something is stopping me...fear?...anxiety?....I want to figure it out or Im gonna spend alot of time sitting here watching life pass by.....It makes me sad just thinking about sitting here all day...but thats what Im doing...Seriously...I feel nuts recently..nothing makes sense...I dont have alot of motivation... and here we go im crying again...ughhh I just want some......