I guess what it means for me is tht if i am in a battle about over drinking for a long period of time...i always loose..I have to get to the causes and conditions that make the mental compolsion to drink so strong and work on those....just whiteknuckling it will not keep me from a drink forever...ok for the short term though.
And yes...once i drink I do seem to loose the ability to make a rational decision to stop..plus i drank all day and night so the physical withdrawal with out a drink made me unable to have enough will to suffer the withdrawal and if i had unsupervised it would have been dangerous physically.
Just sorta my thoughts on it today.