There is much more to AA than going to meetings imo..
Undecided is ok........but please dont decide until you have try a few different meetings.
like nelco says.....get a sponsor......ask to be taken through the steps.
There no one in charge...your right.....but thats for a good reason.
Have you got a copy of the aa traditions.......it will explain alot.
If it dont work for you...ok thats fine....try another support group.
But before you decide take a while to look at the big picture....
thankyou for your post...i admire your honesty...........trucker