Numb..
I was numb. Comfortably. Or so I thought.
Then the stuff that I had bottled and hidden started to leak out and it was either go crazy or do something.
So I did something. I went to Al-anon. And when I got back from my first meeting I started to surf the web for resources and information and stumbled on here. I read a couple of threads and pondered for a while. Then I posted.
I realised that I'm not going crazy. I'm not on my own. This is not only happening to me.