Thanks for the reply. I just read through some stuff I wrote in my blueprints for progress book. I so easily forget how it feels when they drink. He keeps telling me that if I dwell in the past we will never recover. We agreed to have a weekly brunch and discuss the previous week and the next week. He wants to try to do 90 meetings in 90 days as best as he can-he travels a lot with work. Its amazing how fear can control your life. Like now, I'm fearful that if I do stick to my guns and stay in the US for a little longer, he will leave me. But I know that fear isn't rational considering three days ago I was considering leaving. Ugh. I hate the feelings of always trying to please even when its not good for me.