Yes I have been in therapy for years and it sure does have to do with me not thinking I deserve better and taking care of my inner child. My HP has certainly put my exab across the street from me so that I will continue to addess this issue and deal with it. Thank you for reminding me of that. It is something I MUST continue to hear and remind myself every day!!! It is a daily struggle. The ego is a powerful thing and I am constantly reminded that he rejected me every time I walk out of my house. My inner child is reminded of constantly being rejected by my alcoolic father. This is my personal struggle.