Ditto what everyone said about the disease speaking. It does speak. I look at it this way: I created a habit, drinking. It became a non-logical, impulsive urge that came from a part of my brain that steers mindless behavior, not logical action. The habit became ingrained in everything I thought and did. Even now, when I have made the logical choice not to drink, those automatic thoughts are still coming from that part of my brain.
We all battle with it, Every day. Mindless impulse versus logical thought.
Just don't take that first drink!