Why is my brain still constantly making excuses for me to be able to drink?...
hi louis,.............because you are suffering from a disease that will try to tell you every day you dont have it. If I were you I would give the bars a miss for a while. If you keep going in to the barber shop you will eventually get a hair cut.
It does not matter where you are going because you are taking Louis with you, we hurt ourselves the most when we drink , so we need to get sober for ourselves first otherwise it does not last.
I hope all goes well for you and you get plenty of support where ever you are going. I could not do this alone, it had to be "we" instead of I for me.
My way failed so many times. take care and happy travels